Last night, I was with my friends in a cafe. we ended up chatting outside..
I was particularly struck by the conversation of Marv and Karl about losing that sweet, idealistic, romantic look on love.
It was kinda sad to hear those ideas coming from them, but still I eavesdropped. It hit me hard that it does really happen to people. Like practicality and reality would dominate over the painted “image of love”.
It hit me because I feel that I am going through it- that I lost the old “sweet” me.
That I become cold in terms of relationships.
That I find it hard to go out with someone because I’m just lazy to and just not comfortable with the idea anymore.
It frustrates me that I “somewhat” lost that side of me who still feels “kilig”, in its truest sense.
…the side of me that would sacrifice time just to be with that someone…
…the side of me who would do crazy stuff to show my affection…
I don’t know why I despise the stupid things I did for love before.
I just find them corny and plain stupid.
I don’t wanna be an ice king.
I still wanna believe in love but perhaps loving has become too practical for me now.
I just miss being loved.
I hope that’s the real reason.
I was particularly struck by the conversation of Marv and Karl about losing that sweet, idealistic, romantic look on love.
It was kinda sad to hear those ideas coming from them, but still I eavesdropped. It hit me hard that it does really happen to people. Like practicality and reality would dominate over the painted “image of love”.
It hit me because I feel that I am going through it- that I lost the old “sweet” me.
That I become cold in terms of relationships.
That I find it hard to go out with someone because I’m just lazy to and just not comfortable with the idea anymore.
It frustrates me that I “somewhat” lost that side of me who still feels “kilig”, in its truest sense.
…the side of me that would sacrifice time just to be with that someone…
…the side of me who would do crazy stuff to show my affection…
I don’t know why I despise the stupid things I did for love before.
I just find them corny and plain stupid.
I don’t wanna be an ice king.
I still wanna believe in love but perhaps loving has become too practical for me now.
I just miss being loved.
I hope that’s the real reason.
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