:: Confession ::

Lately i was hurt but i am trying to pick up the wreck… from where i slumped and stand again to face greater adversities..

I am stronger now… i hope, but if you are before the eye of the storm.. You can never tell what to do, but the first thing that comes to your mind… and those are the unplanned things..

I need to move on because no one is going to push me harder than myself..

No one is gonna making me happier than conquering my fears and feeling the victory..

I still want to feel.. I don’t wanna numb myself of the beautiful things in life..love.friends.family… yet i am almost to the point of saturation. What really is my purpose? I know it is a responsibility too great for anyone but in my case it was never a choice.. It is a commitment.

I am sad… that’s reality biting me.

How can anyone love me? When even i am confused of my emotions.. Confused, but not diffused, oxymoronic, cause i am a moron i guess.

I am sad.

I feel alone. My family is here. My few friends are here. Yet i feel empty. Where the hell is my soul mate? Shall i go to hell and back just to find one? Or must i wait forever?

So sad.. But life is like that i cant have all the good things in life.. I have a good job.. Yet my emotions are idle. My mind is sick and my heart, in constant battery.

Do i deserve these things? I guess so.. My karma? Perhaps.. But one thing is for sure, i still believe in fate.. In destiny,, that in the most proper of time and place.. I wont crave for happiness….happiness will approach me and it will say, indulge in me….